My Blog, My Psychiatrist

It's rare I do this, the last time may have been a year ago, but I need to vent. If you can't handle it stop reading, it's my blog so I'll continue...

A year ago my Grandma passed away. For those of you who knew her you'll understand this post. For those of you who didn't, I wish you had.

Over the last year I have lost her many times over. I'll think to tell her something, go to ask her something, have a dream about her, do something that reminds me of her and realize she's no longer here. And I feel the loss all over again.

I thought the burial experience would have shocked my brain into realizing that she's gone, apparently it didn't. My dime-store psychiatrist theory is that losing her is so overwhelming that my brain realizes I can only handle it in doses (not bad for a virtual psychiatrist!).

Needless to say, this has been the fastest, and at the same time, the longest year of my life. I miss her.

Whew, I feel better and saved $200/hr in the process : )